Chic Mama
Single parenthood,addictions,infidelity & lies
rss
email
twitter
facebook
  • Home
  • Useful Links
  • Privacy Policy
  • Reviews

A single mother of many children struggling to come to terms with the shock departure of her husband, his addictions, infidelity and lies

Panic and Gratitude

8 comments
Posted on Friday, 20 November 2009 by Chic Mama




Thank you all for your well wishes, I'm still not feeling great but realise I've come off lightly and could feel a lot worse. Unfortunately the baby did not sleep yesterday and in fact destroyed the playroom which is still in disarray much to the disgust of his older siblings.

I woke up at 2am this morning in a panic. Why now am I falling apart? I've never suffered panic attacks in the past. I was very scared and kept trying to distract myself. I ended up pacing my bedroom trying not to succumb to it.
Eventually it stopped and I got back to sleep. Today I feel a bit shaky still, maybe it's because I'm not feeling well, or maybe it was the night nurse tablets?
I must admit last week I had a couple of moments where my heart started palpitating and I felt breathless but it stopped very quickly.

I really don't need this worry on top of everything else. I have a big week ahead of me which I'm dreading.

On to my Friday gratitude list, I am grateful for;

1. Only having mild flu symptoms

2. Day and Night nurse which has meant I can still function.

3. My beautiful children who keep me going.

4. My family.

5. John Lewis for giving me Christmas inspiration.

6. For certain people's kindness, too many to mention but they have all gone way beyond the call of duty.

7. For de-cluttering, although unplanned the clear out made me feel good.

8. For internet shopping, thus avoiding queues, heavy traffic and carrying bulky items.

9. Handymen, it's amazing how quickly they can get all those little jobs done that I haven't a clue how to do.

10.When I get there I will be very grateful for the 'dump' where I can take all those broken toys that I have cleared out.


Bookmark and Share



Category: panic attacks

Not up to much today

13 comments
Posted on Thursday, 19 November 2009 by Chic Mama



Bed is where I'd like to be.

Thank goodness for Day and Night Nurse and thank goodness I can actually take something for the first time in years as I am neither pregnant or breastfeeding.

At least I can function albeit not to my best ability. Fingers crossed I won't feel any worse and will be back on form tomorrow.

Going back to the sofa in the hope that the baby will have a sleep and give me a break for a few minutes.



Bookmark and Share



Hypnotherapy and more......

10 comments
Posted on Tuesday, 17 November 2009 by Chic Mama



Well I've had sick child after sick child for two weeks now, not been feeling great myself plus my 'mini' meltdown last week hence the lack of comments on everyone's blogs.

 I realised today that I must tackle  the dreaded *sshh* Christmas presents. I have to admit that I'm miserable when it comes to Christmas......it always seems like such a lot of hard work for one day after which you are left with more toys to find room for and excess pounds on the tummy and hips!

Gone are the days when I used to think of a different theme for my Christmas table, spending hours deciding on colour schemes, buying tiny 'table' presents for everyone ( up to fourteen of us) and buying new accessories for the new look.
Haha....maybe I'm just suffering from Christmas 'burnout'.

When the first couple of children were very young I used to love Christmas, it was all about them and I'd happily stay up virtually all of Christmas Eve night wrapping presents and peeling brussel sprouts knowing that I had to cook a twenty pound turkey the next morning for fourteen people for lunch.
Maybe I just got fed up waiting on all those people year after year. I started to resent them slightly for taking me away from the 'good bits' of Christmas- playing with my children.
We'd just finish clearing up the dinner when the in laws would expect the next meal. Over the years I'd managed to par it down to the minimum, ham and turkey sandwiches and Christmas cake. Then there would be demands of cups of tea.
The last Christmas we were all together I took the baby to bed and fell asleep exhausted, and didn't reappear until the next day.

As usual I've completely gone off the subject.....enough of this Christmas day talk!!!
It's presents that are causing me grief at the moment.
My children break up from school in just over three weeks, I am so unorganised and cannot believe the date....where did that come from?
One also has a birthday before then as well.

My children need ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
Our house is full of toys.
But.....they will be expecting something.

I did a quick shop online at Toys R Us today so that's the baby done.
Only the others to do and all the adults in my life. Gulp!

On an entirely different note, I know a lot of you were interested to hear about my hypnotherapy session.... today I went for the second time. But......this is going to sound really boring , I can't tell you much about it at all. When I went the first time the hypnotherapist ,who is a lovely intuitive lady, said there was no way I could be hypnotised for confidence without dealing with all the other 'issues' first. So we are dealing with coping strategies. It's really weird, I know I am totally aware the whole time although I did drift off momentarily today, so I'm not sure how you know if you're being hypnotised. I could tell today that something was happening and I left with a big grin but it's not the quick fix I was hoping for. I've also got a lot of homework to do. I have lots of CD's to listen to for various different problems....stress, anger, grief,panic etc. I really must find the time to do them and not stay up half the night looking at the computer.
I do feel a bit calmer today, which is the first time in a week and I have got to do my homework....so if you see me blogging away or stuck to the computer too much, remind me. I tend to forget.

Now what internet site can I look at for present inspiration?


Bookmark and Share



Category: alternative medicine
« Older Entries
Related Posts with Thumbnails

Followers

I'm Tweeting

    I'm reading...

    • Lets have a cocktail...
    • india knight's posterous
    • Westendmum
    • Looking Fab in your Forties
    • Mommy Maria
    • A Mothers Ramblings
    • Fashion's Most Wanted
    • My Recovery
    • Gloria's Spanish View
    • Stacy's Random Thoughts
    • My Shitty Twenties
    • Fighting Off Frumpy
    • One of 365
    • Sweeter Living
    • Some Mothers Do Ave Em
    • Gigi's Ramblings
    • Posh Totty
    • The Path To A New Me
    • Just Something I Made
    • clareybabbling
    • Libertylondongirl
    • Balance With Purpose
    • dulwichmum
    • The Green Stone Woman
    • Diary of A Surprise Mum
    • I'm just F.I.N.E.-- Recovery in Al-Anon
    • My Charming Kids
    • and 1 more means four
    • A LIFE RECLAIMED
    • Modern Crush
    • Mom of Opiate Addicted Son
    • Cupcakes & Diamonds
    • Alpha Mummy - Times Online - WBLG
    • New Mummy
    • The Rest Is Still Unwritten
    • The Potty Diaries
    • Deeplyflawedbuttrying's Blog
    • Belgian Waffle
    • Rosie Scribble
    • Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog)
    • Perfectly Happy Mum
    • The Famewhore Squirrel Welcomes Motherfuckers to Sarcastic Bastard
    • Diary of a Mad Mammy
    • Insomniac Mummy
    • sitting on the mood swing at the playground
    • White Rabbit
    • Baby Baby
    • Curiosity
    • "Where`s your other sock gone?"
    • Blogger Widgets Hacks Templates Tips Tricks Make money Seo & Pagerank
    • Daddy Geek Boy
    • Mad Manic Mamas
    • Dad Who Writes
    • With eyes wide open...
    • Irish Mammy on the run
    • Not such a Yummy Mummy's Blog
    • The Wife of bold
    • I promise that I will do my best
    • My deadly truths
    • Dulwich Divorcee
    • Metropolitan Mum
    • Diary of a Ledger
    • Look left of the pleiades
    • Moments from suburbia
    • Motherhood: The Final Frontier
    • lady mama
    • bringing up charlie
    • Manic Mother
    • Forty Not Out
    • Alcoholic Mummy
    • Linny's Vault
    • Nuts in May
    • Fat, frumpy & fifty...
    • Angry Julie Monday
    • The Divorcée dares to dream
    • Hot Cross Mum
    • A Pretty Face
    • WOODNOTWOOD
    • An Addict in our Son's Bedroom
    • Ravings of a Mad Housewife
    • Another Day in the Madhouse
    • Miss Britt
    • Helena Halme
    • Brighton Mum-Teenage Angst
    • The Pineapple Tart
    • Loving and Parenting an Addict
    • Pink Cupcake
    • Life the universe and all thats in it
    • QueenBee and Company
    • Sometimes I Make Lists.
    • Chicky Chicky Baby
    • Black Eyeliner, Baby Giggles, A Siamese Cat and the Study of the Human Mind...
    • THE MEANEST MOM
    • Flower Fairies and Fairy Cakes
    • Maternal Tales from the South Coast
    • Sweeter Homes
    • Single Parent Dad
    • Free Advice is worth what you pay for it
    • MelRoXx
    • Part Mummy Part Me
    • The White House
    • Being More Through Having Less
    • Diving Into the Mind of a Recovering Addict
    • (yes) iM Single
    • Managed Chaos
    • THE VIEW FROM THIS END
    • Leelou Blogs
    • Her Big Sad
    • Caution...Woman At Work
    • Marriedwithfour
    • Eternally Distracted
    • Pawn Shop Soul
    • Ramblings of a mum on the run
    • Scarlet Blue
    • Mom vs Heroin
    • For Ezra
    • Just Playing Pretend
    • SO LOVELY
    • Just Another Day
    • Memoires of a Heroinhead
    • The Learning Curve
    • Mum Plus 4
    • OMG We're Pregnant!
    • Sane without drugs
    • Circles Are Forever
    • Secret Diaries of a Wannabe Yummy Mammy
    • Random mutterings of a Doctor Up North
    • A Bigger Cup
    • Addiction-InGodWeTrust
    • Angry In Oman
    • Single Mom Sanctuary
    • Blogpourri
    • Diary of a Fat Teenager
    • Paging Doctor Mommy
    • new to this...
    • A Mother' Secrets
    • Save One Mammy
    • The SAG Scholarship Pay it Forward Project
    • Sex, Chocolate and Red Lipstick
    • mumplustwo
    • Half Mum Half Biscuit
    • How I remember It
    • I hate my face, I hate this place,and I'm stung out again
    • Blinded By Love For Justin
    • J'AIME MOI (LUVIN ME)
    • Me & My Ego
    • The Susan/Susan Recovery Project
    • The Dotterel
    • Mummadiddee
    • How I Came to be in England
    Show 25 Show All

    Blog Archive

    • ▼  2009 (81)
      • ▼  November (13)
        • Panic and Gratitude
        • Not up to much today
        • Hypnotherapy and more......
        • Enough to 'drive' you insane
        • I am thankful
        • Looking deep inside,it hurts
        • Sibling rivalry or something else?
        • A Zombie Chicken,Dragon loyalty & Queen of all thi...
        • Clarity?
        • It's that Friday Feeling!
        • Mummy....Why?
        • Definition of a teenage boy
        • Friends
      • ►  October (15)
        • I spy with my little eye....
        • It's Friday again!
        • I saw the light.....
        • My Mission- Part 2
        • Lots to be grateful for....
        • The Mission- Part 1
        • Nothing but Fog!
        • Highs and lows
        • Mission begins......
        • Friday's gratitude list
        • It's Award Time
        • Stressed? Who me?
        • Little Treasures
        • To review or not to review? That is the question.....
        • My gratitude list
      • ►  September (19)
        • Money,money, money...........
        • Will this anger ever go?
        • Today I am grateful......
        • La di lah.....
        • Premio Blog Award
        • Roll up, award time!
        • Confidence? What's that?
        • Sssshhhh..........
        • A Good Read Award
        • Letting Go
        • Thank you
        • So Alone......and yet....
        • Thank You
        • Lazy day
        • A Wake Up Call
        • I get bored easily
        • I told you it was good for us
        • Don't panic! A miracle happened!
        • Through gritted teeth
      • ►  August (22)
        • My husband is an alien
        • Learning to say NO!
        • A new address.......
      • ►  July (12)

    About Me

    My Photo
    View my complete profile

    Trophy Cabinet

    Premio Blog





    [kreativ_blog.jpg]


    free counters MyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected

    Share it

    Tags

    addiction alternative medicine anger baby Beauty boogie Boredom bras breast-feeding children chocolate cocaine confidence court crystals dating Davina McCall days out depression discipline divorce drugs Facebook finances food friends healing health holidays ice cream ill kisses lawyers maintenance Meme money night out online dating panic attacks paranoia PMT shy sleep Stephenie Meyer sunshine Tag of 8's tantrums tears teenagers therapy toddlers travel Twitter Ugly Betty weight gain weight loss What Beauty Products Do I use? Beauty What Beauty Products I use Wine Worry

    • Home
    • WP Blogger Themes
    • Wordpress To Blogger
    Powered by Bloger | Designed by WebTreats
    Converted by Wordpress To Blogger for WP Blogger Themes | Sponsored by iBlogtoBlog